Current mood:

optimistic

how to stay positive?
do research on ways to get back into the UK.
have been on the consulate sites, Education UK, the UK Border Agency, York Graduate Office etc. it's funny, because i was on a lot of those sites around this time last year, focusing on getting my first visa!
it would seem that the best scheme is to do my post-grad and transfer it to a post-graduate studies work visa. not cheap, obviously, and does depend on my getting accepted to a grad program at York. (yes at York, of course at York - where else?) this also means i have to seriously consider whether i could survive the MA English programs at York, eeek. anyway, it's got me cheered up a bit.
woke at 6, after falling asleep at 9. not too jet-lagged, more emotionally drained. haven't begun to properly unpack, there's just stuff flying all over the place. good news is that i found my old mobile so i'll work on getting that reactivated.
chatted to Jack and Chris this morning, over Facebook. my laptop doesn't connect to the internet here, which is a pain in the ass. but i found out that Chris's has the same problem, so we're thinking it has something to do with the old uni network screwing up our proxy servers. yes. they're both doing okay, bless. but talking to them has made me smile. Chris also sent a lovely email last night, which i received this morning. though i can tell how upset he is (not only because of leaving, but because one of the jobs he had lined up fell through) it really makes both of us feel better to just communicate and keep ourselves updated. it's weird hearing him talk about his dad and Kath and the dogs and Shanne, knowing that it'll be ages till i'm there again.
but i will be! i absolutely will be. Mom's being really supportive, thank god, and realises how important it is for me to focus on going back to the UK. i know it breaks her heart in a way, but i'm sure she'd rather i run off again and be deliriously happy, than stay and miss out. i don't think this is premature excitement. the sooner i get working on this, the better. and even the research is all just a coping mechanism today, one day soon it will turn out to be useful. i will go back, i will go back!!